When you think everything in your life is going down hill, rather it be financially, emotionally, or spiritually you need an outlet. For many of us we use our habits to mask us from the pain and suffering that we go through in everyday life. Everyday we go through struggles but without faith we have no backbone.
Your belief in God and a prayer daily will always help see you through the unthinkable. A year ago I hit my all time low I lost my job which I invested 5 years of my time due to my own lack of common sense. For a while I blamed everybody, I was in bitter disbelief that it really happened. From there the devil was tapping on my shoulders day in and day out. My drinking habits got out of control just needing a drink to help me cope with the transformation that I needed to adjust to. My surroundings changed drastically, the things I would do on a regular basis happened once every few months. Now I needed a change to better myself. I woke up late one afternoon after a long night of drinking........and said to myself "What the f**know are you doing with yourself??" that was gods way of telling me to come back home. From that day on I quit drinking, I began praying daily rather it be for good things or if I'm just having a bad day asking the Lord for his guidance to steer my life in the right direction. Then it was time to get saved ..... The day of my baptism was one of the most remarkable days of my life. Seeing my family all together at the same time brought tears of joy to my face. This moment was priceless looking back on how much I've changed. I'm not gonna lie I have began back drinking but the key is knowing your limitations. I went from drinking on my days off 4-5 fifths riding drinking to maybe a cup or 2. Prayer worked wonders for me looking at the things I've been through you have to give praise to the man above for our hardships because that's what will bring you closer to him. Get your life back in order the way it should be. Phillip Marcus
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Sometimes LOVE isn't enough to make you stay in a committed relationship. As much as you try it can always be something to stop your happiness, rather it be from outside sources or it could be from your own dirt that you have done throughout the relationship that may come to the light In most cases it would be from outside sources which would cause something so good to go so wrong. Loving a person completely for all there flaws is the first step to knowing she/he is the one, but depending on the drama involved with the person could help push you away.
Nobody is perfect, some are perfectly flawed and some our just flawed. Don't give up on love or your relationship from a few minor set backs especially if you do not want to lose your significant other. Remember you can only deal with so much until you reach that point of no return such as but no limited to b*ll $ h*t constantly, trust issues, 3rd party accusations etc. A men we try hard to change ourselves for the one that we want to be with but sometimes that's never good enough. We tend to fuck up something good for that one drunk night or that one tight little dress and so forth I know you can tell where I'm going with this. Telling your true feelings to the one you love can delay both parties emotional problems but sooner or later saying these words "I love you" or "I'm sorry it won't happen again" will run out and the love that you thought you had will be gone with the snap of a finger. So ask yourself do you want to lose that and "wash your hands" with the past and start new or..... could you get past the few problems that you know you have and or change the things your significant other would like for you to change. As a result you can not I repeat can not become bitter from the situation because you could mess up the probability of you finding the right person because of past relationships. At the beginning of every road soon will be an end but it will be bumpy along the way so make sure it is what you want and not just something your doing out of anger. Til we meet again........... New beginnings or new endings Phillip Marcus The Counselor The world today as we know it has changed, surprisingly the "American Dream" is now looked upon as living paycheck to paycheck barley making it to live as we want to.. A majority of people say. to themselves everyday that they want to become financially stable but in this economy we it's almost impossible even with a college degree. Logically you would think with a college degree I can make good money but nowadays you can barley find a job in the field that you have your degree.
We become pushed into this economic failure known to us AS POVERTY. How do you overcome these hard economic times making minimum wage supporting a family of 3 besides working 2 jobs with a lack of sleep? Then you come into your place of. business or your facility that you work in to become irritated by lack of communication only to be told what to do and what not to do by under paid "superiors" that. lack the actual knowledge of the jobs in the facility. Like I tell people all the time micromanaging people and actually working the job and knowing all the hazards and economic downfalls of the job is not motivating me to come to work everyday. The only motivation that we as people have is our families that we have to support. My American dream is not to become financially stable, it is to make a fairly decent wage that I can support my family and be able to maintain a fairly decent lifestyle. Our government,, CEOs, supervisors and managers. expect us to enjoy working daily but I would assume you would love working when I have no clue what poverty is. For example in the Tyler Perry Movie entitled good deeds he was the CEO of his family business and a lady asked him "when is the last time you actually worried about paying a bill" and "how much does a gallon of milk cost"? His response. was that he didn't. know. When your at the top for so long you don't realize what the people who actually put in those long hours daily go thru in order to support their families. You don't understand the economic downfalls to this position. In closing the only way to avoid poverty as we know it is to use the motivation inside your homes. Let then guide you daily and be the reason you go to work with your head held high,, let them understand that this is only the beginning to your journey for success. Find your correct path and maintain. that lifestyle that you would like. to see yourself in the future. But remember do not live beyond your means and rule number 1 pride will leave you broke, never let pride get in the way of your finances or your happiness. Phillip Marcus Have you ever sat down and thought about everything that had been going in in your life and said to yourself "I wonder is god punishing me for things I have done in the past?" How does one delegate the struggles of life and reality vs karma and god letting you know that something in your life is not right? At times I sit back and think to myself did my bad overrun my good throughout my young life? Are some things that I have done over the years finally coming back and paying a toll on me in my life currently?
After being at my job for 5 years I get let go for my own nonsense and my lack of disregard to the things u would do at work. I didn't take work seriously and got let go for my poor judgment and lack of maturity. Now think is that my own everyday struggle or is that God himself serving his punishment upon me for not being thankful for the things in life that I had and that I currently have? In my head me losing my job was one of the best things that could of happened for me, it allowed me to see things clearly. I was given an opportunity of a lifetime and I chose to neglect the opportunities that my previous company had to offer me. What if I would of taken the back up coordinator position that was offer several months ago, would that have been the path that God intended for me to have? How would I have been in that situation with me being in power? Would I have motivated my employees to work productively and safely? When thoughts of struggles and punishments fly through my head like birds through trees I think...... What was the best outcome for me? Maybe it is punishment from God that allows me to better myself and equip myself with the proper knowledge needed as well as the struggles to get through everyday life. So if this is God's punishment I appreciate it because if I knew what I know now half the decisions that I made throughout and currently in my life would of been completely different..s In conclusion ladies and gentlemen without pain there would not be pleasure.. Without struggles there would not be strength... Without evil there would not be a god Struggling is God's opportunity to involve himself more into your life and once that door has closed and you have lost all hope God opens your eyes and let's you know that as his child things will always be alright. Prayer is the key... Phillip Marcus Have you ever met the perfect woman that came with "extra baggage"? In order to love this woman properly you have to accept everything that comes with her rather it be a child/ children. I have been in this situation many times and I've realized that I have a passion for the family life that I lacked in my own childhood, and I feel that the best way to embrace that is to give to other children I meet along the way until I have my own. The more you fall in love with this woman, the more you become attached to the child embracing your live for her/him like that child were your own. Enjoying the daily tasks of feeding, nap time, you know the family life.
I think back to when my love began for them....... When we first met she was reluctant to let me meet her family, and with the child being in the toddler stages it was kind of hard to see or visit them. So soon down the line we met, yea all of us and that first moment when she was crying I laid her across my chest as if she belonged to me. As we both fell asleep with the long of. happiness on her face I turned and said. "don't sweat it I'm good with children". She laughed and been by my side since. Overtime our relationship has become deeper from me being around during the key moments in her family's life such as surgery doctor appointments and I plan to be with. her when it's time for her to sign up for school. My love not only for her but for them as a unit as a family has became stronger as if........ I gotten her pregnant years ago. At times I think this could be harsh territory because of the situation but as a man we must always remember that you don't have to take the place of a father to be one. I am the Child-less Father I think about everything I went thru as a child good and bad, then I flip it as if I was cooking flap jacks for breakfast and think what can or could I do better or differently. And I've conquered my own childhood thoughts with them, and headed on a better route since day one with them. In closing I love ya never forget that The Child-less Father Phillip Marcus As men we think don't think about how our behavior effects women in current or past situations. We go about life thinking with our. "manhood" instead of thinking with our hearts and our minds. We choose to know our women as objects or "sex toys" instead of embracing the facts on how we feel. It's one thing being honest with a woman telling them "I'm not looking for a relationship or just looking for a f**k buddy". All of us men have been here before telling a woman these key things.
I asked myself for years why am I that way and currently I still am. This lack of commitment began back when I was in grade school. I was in love with a young girl that messed my heart up in the long run and then the expected happen. I began to have a bitter disregard for how woman relate to me. Thinking that having sex with a woman and getting to know them as a whole would be the answer to soon leave in the long run. But as we overlook those feelings because of our own hurt we tend to break barriers in a woman's life. You give her the feeling of gaining trust again with the late night conversations only to disappear months later because she could become clingy. So how do u change yourself from disregarding a females feelings to wanting to change and find that one? To for commitment we first need to realize how would we feel if we were to lose that special woman in our life, that "f**k buddy" that has been there for years but you never made. that commitment. cause she would be perfect. If you lost her knowing she would be doing everything that she did for you over the years for someone else. Knowing how you feel about her and embracing your. feelings to her is the start. The key is not dwelling on the fact that a "title" is involved now, because that could shake the tide of the future relationship. We as men have to have a reason to commit to her and only wanna be with that one woman, to build our future and. family for happiness and commit to have loyalty in our relationships. Will you take the oath to change? Will you stop the temptation and the urge for new "p**sy" or conversation. Take the first step today and commit to the one that you love or you will lose her gradually with time. Phillip Marcus |